Well it look like I found another sport to suck at. I am so fat, weak, and slow that I can't even get out of my own way. I am so frustrated by my lack of grace or ability that I want to quit. I cant quit though. I am locked in for a year, and it would be a bad example for my kid. Nothing seems to work and not only am I fighting my opponents, but I feel like my own body is hindering me.
The last thing I want is a participation trophy, or promotion. I don't feel like I know or can demonstrate any more now than I could when I started.
I am starting to wonder if there is anything I am good at beyond feeling sorry for myself and eating. I went and fucked up the eating part with WLS.